Insomnia and Why it Bites!!

So here we go with not sleeping again. It 5 am, and I have to be at work in 4 hours. I’ve been up since 7 am  yesterday. So going on 24 hours already and I still have the whole day today ahead of me. I have no clue why I go through these spells of getting no sleep. It is most bothersome though, for me anyways! I will be useless by 8 pm tonight, which is hopefully going to be my bedtime….

Any-who, my insomnia is becoming a more frequent thing in the past year or so. I will be up for a day or two straight and then I will crash for a night. Then, all will be well again for some time before the insomnia comes again. I wished I knew when the insomnia is coming but alas I don’t. I wished I could plan these no sleep days around my days off….but nope! No such luck. I can only hope that my day today at work is not going to be a long one.

This is the first time in a long time that I am going to have to function with no sleep. I have just recently gone back to work full-time, so this should be a fun and yet challenging day. I love a good challenge though! It’s just enough to keep me on my toes. Makes me remember that sleep is precious, and worth its weight in gold.

I know this too shall pass. But in this moment I am stressing over how to get through the day.

Insomnia bites because you never know when it will rear its ugly head. It is such a random, spontaneous occurrence for me that I feel like I’ve been hit by a train.  Just like you never know if and when you will get into a car accident. It could happen frequently or infrequently, there is just no warning. Like, I swear that I could sleep but when I lay down my brain goes haywire. 9 billion random things start running through my head and I can not, for anything, get them to stop. This makes sleeping out of the question.

Here’s some info from The National Sleep Foundation on insomnia.

Living and coping with insomnia can be debilitating. Especially when it occurs frequently or lasts for days on end. Please take care of yourself. The house can be cleaned tomorrow. The laundry will still be there to fold, tomorrow. Getting a good nights rest is more important than continually running yourself on empty. Or worse, running yourself ragged and that can cause health issues. Also remember to be gentle with yourself. It is okay if you forget something. It is okay if you need a few extra minutes to gather your thoughts. Take care of you! Remember, this too shall pass.

Try to learn new ways to induce sleep. Set a sleep schedule, and follow it. I, even though I forgot it at the old house when we moved, use Lavender oil in a diffuser when I go to bed. It is a calming scent for me, and helps induce sleep. I will assuredly be going to get it for tonight though. I also do not have a clock in my bedroom that is visible at night, so that way I am not tempted to stare at the clock.  I occasionally take my sleeping medicines, but it is hard when I have no idea the insomnia is coming. By the time I realize it, it’s too late to take them. Try as many different things as possible until you find what works for you. Find what works best for you and run with it. Even if that means speaking to your doctor.

Here’s some info from The National Sleep Foundation on what to do when you can’t sleep.

If you have ever suffered with insomnia, you have my deepest sympathies!

So, what are some of your tips and tricks that induce sleep? Please let me know in the comments.







Quotes on Faith

Today I am going to share some quotes from Good Reads. I am lacking in this department, so hopefully you will find some meaningful, thought-provoking quotes here.

 “All the world is made of faith, and trust, and pixie dust.”

J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

“I believe in everything until it’s disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it’s in your mind. Who’s to say that dreams and nightmares aren’t as real as the here and now?”
John Lennon

“Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens.”
J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring

“I have great faith in fools – self-confidence my friends will call it.”
Edgar Allan Poe, Marginalia

“And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.”
Anonymous, Holy Bible: King James Version

“And still, after all this time,
The sun never says to the earth,
“You owe Me.”Look what happens with
A love like that,
It lights the Whole Sky.”

“Sometimes beautiful things come into our lives out of nowhere. We can’t always understand them, but we have to trust in them. I know you want to question everything, but sometimes it pays to just have a little faith.”
Lauren Kate, Torment

“Faith is not the belief that God will do what you want. It is the belief that God will do what is right.”
Max Lucado, He Still Moves Stones

“None of us knows what might happen even the next minute, yet still we go forward. Because we trust. Because we have Faith.”
Paulo Coelho, Brida

“Do not be afraid; our fate
Cannot be taken from us; it is a gift.”
Dante Alighieri, Inferno

“There’s so much to be grateful for, words are poor things.”
Marilynne Robinson, Home

“In this hour, I do not believe that any darkness will endure.”
J.R.R. Tolkien, The Return of the King

“Doubt everything. Find your own light.”
Gautama Buddha

“Extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence.”
Carl Sagan

“You do not need to know precisely what is happening, or exactly where it is all going. What you need is to recognize the possibilities and challenges offered by the present moment, and to embrace them with courage, faith and hope.”
Thomas Merton

“Faith is about doing. You are how you act, not just how you believe.”
Mitch Albom, Have a Little Faith: a True Story

“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls.”
Joseph Campbell

“Some things have to be believed to be seen.”
Madeleine L’Engle

“I have been driven many times upon my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had no where else to go. My own wisdom and that of all about me seemed insufficient for that day.”
Abraham Lincoln

“To love means loving the unlovable. To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable. Faith means believing the unbelievable. Hope means hoping when everything seems hopeless.”
G.K. Chesterton

“The Simple Path
Silence is Prayer
Prayer is Faith
Faith is Love
Love is Service
The Fruit of Service is Peace”
Mother Teresa

“To have faith is to trust yourself to the water. When you swim you don’t grab hold of the water, because if you do you will sink and drown. Instead you relax, and float.”
Alan W. Watts

“No, I would not want to live in a world without dragons, as I would not want to live in a world without magic, for that is a world without mystery, and that is a world without faith.”
R.A. Salvatore, Streams of Silver

“Faith ― acceptance of which we imagine to be true, that which we cannot prove.”
Dan Brown, The Da Vinci Code

“If you have a dream, don’t just sit there. Gather courage to believe that you can succeed and leave no stone unturned to make it a reality.”

“Faith consists in believing what reason cannot.”
Voltaire, The Works: Voltaire

“Faith is universal. Our specific methods for understanding it are arbitrary. Some of us pray to Jesus, some of us go to Mecca, some of us study subatomic particles. In the end we are all just searching for truth, that which is greater than ourselves.”
Dan Brown, Angels & Demons

“There comes a time in your life when you have to choose to turn the page, write another book or simply close it.”
Shannon L. Alder

News Flash: Moving is No Fun!!

I know it’s been a while but I hate moving!! And I feel like I have just spent the better part of the past 2 weeks moving, in 90 degree heat. I went from 3,300 sq ft to 864 sq ft…. It has been a hard transition for all of us but we are managing. I started working well over 3 weeks ago too, so that has started taking up a substantial amount of my time. It sucks but such is life. It has to be done. I can and will not let my boys down. They need me now more than ever. My mental health has been all over the place the past few weeks with all the changes happening in my life right not. I hate change also!!

I don’t do well when my routine changes. This past month has been especially hard. It is just so hard accepting that the whole way my life plays out has changed. I am glad to say that things are ever-changing. I love the way our life used to be! But without change nothing is ever going to get better. We had to make changes for ourselves as well as our children. The fear of change will hold you back more than anything. I am scared but we have to move forward.

I hope and wish on a star that things will work out in our relationship but I am just so uncertain at this moment. I am glad to say that we are working on us as individuals as well as a couple. But this is not an overnight fix. I need time to assess our situation after such a drastic change in our lives. We both have wants and desires that are not being fulfilled. This is a huge aspect of our relationship that we are working on. We need to be individuals as well as a couple.

Loving someone with a mental illness is a daily challenge. I can honestly say that I am most hard to handle sometimes. It is part of who I am! I wished there were certain things about me that I could change but I can’t. So this is where you must decide to love me through it all or not at all.

I hope that you will forgive me for my absence recently. I am sort of settled into the new place, and I have cable internet now… Soooo I am back!!