Do You Eat Too Quickly?

In short, yes I do….

I have kids, someone is always asking for something during dinner, and I feel I have to eat quickly to accommodate everyone else’s needs. Yes, I am aware that it isn’t the healthiest thing I could be doing. But it is usually a struggle to even eat my food lukewarm if I don’t eat quickly. So it is unusual if I’m not the first one finished.

Dinner is hard in our house, I am the only one here in the evening. Fiance works nights, and that makes taking care of 2 kiddos while trying to cook dinner an extreme struggle. How I battle the children while cooking is a chore all by its self. The youngest is a bouncing, vibrant and destructive tiny terror if I don’t have eyes on him 24/7. Pouring out everything from shampoo to body soap to unrolling the toilet paper and everything in between. Gotta love the troublesome 3’s, and they are no where even remotely better than the terrible 2’s…

Eating quickly also comes from being in a state run children’s home, if you didn’t eat fast enough there was no chance at getting 2nd’s. So it has just been a bad habit that has carried over into adulthood.

So do you eat too quickly?

Any particular reason?

 

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The Best Movies to Watch if You’re Interested in Mental Illness

So today I am going to share some movies that have characters with mental illnesses, or are based on a mental illness story…

Some of these movies really hit home for me.

 

  • A Beautiful Mind

This one is based on a true story about a mathematical genius, played by Russel Crowe, who is schizophrenic. The movies shows the paranoia and delusional sides of schizophrenia and how it affects daily life.

  • Silver Linings Playbook

This movie is about  who has spent time in a mental hospital. He eventually move sin with his parents, after the symptoms of Bipolar disorder cause his wife and kids leave.

  • As Good As It Gets

This movie is about a man who lives with OCD(Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). Jack Nicholson is a novelist who is anti-social, and later in the movie learns to overcome his OCD.

  • Benny & Joon

This movie is about a brother and sister who lost their parents, and the sister is schizophrenic. One of my favorite movies about mental illnesses…

  • Rain Man(1988)

This movie tells a story about a man with Autism and the trails and tribulations associated with it…

 

So these are just a few of several movies that have a character with some form of mental illness intertwined into them. These movies show how hard it can be to be a functioning member of society while coping with mental illnesses. Some of these movies are pretty spot on, at least the ones I can relate with…

Wanna learn first hand what its like to live with a mental illness, watch one of these movies. It is not made up, it is all in our head yet we have no control over it…It is not something you can just wish away, it does not go away on its own. The only treatment is therapy and medications, and hopefully those treatments are successful. Each person has a different form of their illness, so each persons treatment will be different.

Keep on keeping on!!

 

 

Finding Support When You Feel All Alone

I know this is one of the main things I struggle with, I have like literally no friends & very little family that are around to help me cope with the trials and tribulations of this thing we call life….So how do you find support when you feel all alone?

Well, to be honest, I go to Facebook and browse around there for a bit. See if any of my online friends can chat for a second; that usually helps me to not feel so alone. But I have also been known to make a random trip to the coffee shop or quilt shop just for some casual conversation.

I have also been known to crawl into my bed and just be alone for a bit. Sometimes alone time is a good thing, everyone needs 5 minutes to themselves sometimes. Sometimes that is exactly what I need too.

I’ve also been known to crawl into a hot shower and stay there for 30 minutes. It is a time to reflect on why I feel the way I do and how to overcome it.

But at what point is it too much alone time??

Here are some tips from ReachOut.com on ways to combat loneliness and isolation:

  • Get busy

  • Know you’re not alone

  • Boost your self-esteem

  • Explore your interests

  • Enjoy your own company

  • Try not to worry

 

I know some of those things are easier said than done when you are feeling low and all alone. No one knows better than me what it feels like to be isolated from the outside world. I spent so long being sheltered in my teenage years, that is part of the why I have social anxiety.  I was never in a circle of friends, I went to school and came home. Rarely ever going anywhere but to the Doctors. Another reason why I think I am okay with it being just me and my immediate family.

You have to want to make social connections, I try regularly but I am afraid because of my social awkwardness that I fail miserably in that department…

So how do you cope and/or find support when feeling alone?

My End of the Year Review for 2016

What did you do in 2016 that you had not done before?            . Witnessed a wildfire. Learned about 529 savings and investments, attempting to plan for the future.

Did you keep your New Year’s Resolutions/goals for the year and will you make/set more for next year? What are the goals? What are your new ones?      No, it was a 365 money challenge and I failed miserably….First time the bills got behind, the money got spent. We have had more than our fair share of financial difficulties this year. My New Years Resolution this year is 2 pronged….We are saving for a big move, think cross country; and I am determined to quit smoking cigarettes..

Did anyone you know die? Or have a serious illness?                My brother in law died of cancer. I have had a kidney infection for 4 months. Finally got that cleared up this past week. Other than that, no one has become terminally ill this past year.

What would you like to have in 2017 that you lacked in 2016 (doesn’t have to be a physical thing)?Patience….I need more patience to accept things that I cant change. Patience to deal with daily life and not get overwhelmed. Acceptance to deal with things I can’t change….Another car wouldn’t hurt, but beggars cant be choosers. So I am totally grateful for what we do have.

What date from 2016 will remain etched in your memory and why?        Well, my dads 1 year death anniversary was in 2016. My brother in law died in 2016. My fiance left me for a month, then decided to come back in 2016. It was my dads 1 year anniversary since he passed. My daughter became a teen this year…

What was your biggest achievement this year?      I managed to come out of 2016 stronger than I came into it. I have overcome fears I thought I never would. I have accepted the fact that my mother and I cannot be on speaking terms and me live a productive, and meaningful life…

Did you get sick or injured? How about your family?             I had a kidney infection for 4 months, I had 5 stitches put into my hand. my 9yo son had tubes put in his ears. My 3yo son had 4 stitches in his eye, I had 5 stitches put in my hand… My brother in law died from cancer Its been a very eventful year….

What was the best thing you bought?               A new to us car. Our old car broke down in December of last year. So we rang in the new year with a new car…It is our only source of transportation so we needed a dependable vehicle, plus my fiance is a pizza delivery driver…

Where did most of your disposable income go (money leftover after you pay for food, transportation and shelter)               Taking weekly around town trips to see the sights…From April til October, our busy season, we take what we call a wonky weekly adventure….We find something we have never done, or its been a really long time since we’ve done it..And then we go do it. Whether it be going to an amusement park, driving around seeing the sights, going into the National Park…

What song will always remind you of 2016?       Strip it Down by Like Bryan. It describes my situation to a T….I need to get back to the basics in life. So much of my life has become over run with stress and worry…I need to learn to live life at its fullest and accept things that I cant change.

What do you wish you would have done more of?           Laughed, and loved more deeply…I never realized how much of my life was consumed with negativity. My mother has made me feel inferior for far too long…I have lost every sense of who I am as a person. I need to get back to being me. Living my life for me. Doing what I want to do for me and no one else..

What do you wish you would have done less of?        Stressing, complaining, and worrying…I missed out on sooo much of life this past year due to stress and worry. I wished I could get it back but I cant. So I have to accept what was and learn to do better in the future. Not everything you need is put into place for a reason, sometimes it takes hard work and determination to get what you want.

What was your favorite new TV program? Movie? Album/Songs? Or if you didn’t pick up any new ones, what are you still watching/listening to?             The Walking Dead, and Strip it down by Luke Bryan. I started watching Walking Dead on Netflix and have slightly become obsessed…I watch it for hours at a time. I now realize what I have been missing out on all these years…

What was the best book you read this year?         Fall of the Giants by Ken Follett.

How many did you read?   Ummm, about 40.  I love to read. It has been a passion of mine since I was a teen. It allowed me to escape my own reality. I also bought my first Kindle this past year just so I could get free e-books off of Amazon.

What did you do on your birthday and how old were you? Did you feel differently?            I got drunk on my birthday, I was 34. And No, not too terribly different. Nervous about hitting 35 though. I just am starting to feel like an old lady.

What political or social issue stirred you the most?            Hillary Clinton upset me more than anyone probably ever will. She is a disgrace and I am so glad she didn’t win. But I will not continue any further than that due to I don’t want to start a conflict…

Who was the most interesting new person you met?       Tiffany, a girl I worked with for about 2 weeks. She was the most kind person I have ever met. She was always so bubbly at work, she just had this personality that drew you into her.

What changed at your job?       I quit my job. I had only worked there for 3 weeks. I am a serial mom….I am destined to stay home and raise my children…And I am totally okay with that. I don’t know where I would be without my kids, they are the center of my whole world….

What changed in your how?     Well, we moved out of my mothers old home and into our own home. We downsized considerably as well. Plus we went from having w/d connections to no w/d connections. So that has been a huge adjustment.

Describe how a relationship changed.          Omg, has it changed. We have evolved as people and as parents. We are working through some serious hurdles right now and I am not sure how things will end up but we are making every effort to work through this adjustment. We truly love each other, and I can not imagine not having him by my side…

Do you think you are still the same person that you were at the beginning of the year?        Heck no, I most definitely am not….Like I previously said. Things in our lives have changed drastically this past year. But we are rolling with the punches and making forward progress…So that counts for something.

Summarize the year in three words or less. Bonus points for doing it in one word. Explain.        Stop, literally…Stop what you are doing and realize that you will never get the previous minute back. All you can change is what happens in the next minute. Each choice made changes each minute after you make your choice…

What have you learned throughout the year? (Other than crafts)       That I am a braver person than I could’ve ever imagined. I picked myself up and dusted off the strong woman that has been buried inside of me for far too long. I’ve learned when to let go and when to hold on. I’ve learned that not all things go the way they are designed to go. That life can change in a moment. To live life, love, and laugh often…

What was your favorite outfit for warm weather? Cooler weather?         Warm weather outfit is a pair of knee knockers(Capri’s), and a t-shirt or tank top.
Cooler weather is a pair of jeans, long sleeve shirt, and a hoodie…
I am partial to flip flops, so they basically get worn all year long.

Did you learn any new crafts or techniques? What was your favorite thing you made?         I learned how to make a Jacobs ladder quilt block. I also learned how to miter corners, and make borders for quilts…In case you cant tell, I recently learned how to quilt…Lol! It has become my new obsession.

What are your hopes and dreams for the new year?             To quit smoking cigarettes. To learn to stand on my own two feet. To become more of an individual instead of just being mommy 24/7(I love my kids, but I literally am home 24/7 with them). To grow internally and learn to accept things that I can not change.