Feeling Defeated…

So it’s been bad news after bad news the past 2 days….

I’m hoping I’ve just figured it out but until I hear back, I’m just kinda stuck wondering what’s gonna happen. I hate uncertainty! It brings about all kinds of chaos in my head. Anxiety is in full swing right now…

Hoping and wishing on a star that things will change soon, but until then I’ll sit and worry….Knowing full good and well that it won’t change anything, but this news stuff is a serious game changer here. 

I am left feeling defeated and inadequate. This blows in more ways than one. I am left stuck in a hard spot and am unsure which direction to go. Until things change, I am stuck at home. Which sucks all by itsself, because it’s not like I’m not here enough already as it is.

I know that this is temporary, but why me? 

I thought things were going smoothly for once, and out of left field here this comes. I am beyond stressed so I’ll  leave you with one question…

What’s your one go to stress reliever? 



15 Tips to Combat Anxiety

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What is an anxiety attack? An anxiety attack is described as episodes of high degree stress responses accompanied by or precipitated by a high degree of fear or anxiety.

Here are some symptoms:

  • A feeling of overwhelming fear
  • Feelings of going crazy or losing control
  • Feeling like you might pass out
  • An urgency to escape
  • Dizziness
  • Heart Palpitations
  • Trembling
  • Sweating
  • Loss of breath
  • Weak in the knees
  • Turning Pale
  • Chest pressure or pain
  • Feeling detached from reality
  • Burning skin
  • Pins and needles feeling
  • Hot and cold flashes
  • Numbness and/or tingling sensation

This list is not exclusive, there are many other symptoms. Now I am going to share some tips from Anxiety and Depression Association of America on how to combat anxiety. Anxiety attacks can be debilitating; they can make you feel awful. These episodes can be extremely intense and frightening.

Tips to combat anxiety include:

  • Eating healthy
  • Take a time out
  • Limit alcohol and caffeine
  • Get plenty of sleep
  • Exercise daily
  • Take deep breaths
  • Count to 10 slowly
  • Accept that you can not control everything
  • Do your best
  • Welcome humor
  • Maintain a positive attitude
  • Learn what triggers your anxiety
  • Get involved
  • Talk to someone
  • Getting help online

Anxiety is no joke. I personally feel like I am trapped, can’t breathe, and will need to be taken to a safe space immediately. The anxiety attacks can be triggered by many things but most often for me it is from being abandoned as a child and many other things. I get extremely worried if family members aren’t where they say they are going to be at a certain time. This often leads to a panic attack because I fear the worst possible outcome. When having a panic attack my whole chest area above my breasts turns extremely red and splotchy. This is usually an indication that I am about to lose control. Sometimes it can take hours for these feelings to go away.

Anxiety can be treated with medication, therapy, complementary and/or alternative treatments, and transcranial magnetic stimulation (TMS).  Please consult your doctor if you believe you have anxiety issues and about your options for a treatment plan. There are multiple ways for anxiety symptoms to be decreased.