Everlasting Love

So you ever just felt a connection with someone from the first minute you meet them? You just know that this is the person you were meant to find your whole life….Well I found him! He’s a great guy! He’s funny, smart, and handsome. He’s a great father! But all things aside, what happens when Mr. Perfect isn’t so perfect for you anymore? Do you stay and work it out, or leave and hope that you can be amicable for the kids?  This is my current situation….

I thought everything was fine! Turns out he was actually very miserable on the inside and just didn’t know how to tell me. So now it’s day 4 without him; I’m not sure if I’m more hurt, sad, or relieved? Do you really think it’s possible to pick yourself up off the ground this quickly? Especially after you feel like your heart has been ripped out of your chest and stomped on? I wonder if subconsciously I needed the same relief? I thought everything was semi-ok….yes we’ve been having a few issues the past year or so but I had no idea it was this bad. I always chalked it up to my psychotic mind! Or meds needing to be adjusted slightly….

Now here I sit, alone and lonely. Trying to be strong for my boys while emotionally I feel so broken! I’ve had my fair share of tears come lately, and ya know what? I’ve realized I’m better and stronger than this! I can do this, he thinks I can’t but surely he will be surprised to see my rock this sheer insanity! I’m a survivor, after all I’ve been through, and I will pick up the pieces and move on. It may take me several months to get back right and stable on my own two feet again, but I promise you one things for sure. You can’t hold down a determined woman, and especially a Mother!

Love has a way of blinding you! It makes it impossible to see all those small imperfections that drive you insane. I am not sure that I wanted this but possibly I needed it. I’m not saying I’m glad he’s gone, in fact I’m more miserable than I have been in a while! You don’t go from living with and loving someone of 5 years to instantly hating them. I can’t even fathom hating him. He’s been the most wonderful thing to ever happen to me. But it had become apparent that we just can’t live together. He saved us from the darkest depths of hell!! But alas, a promise that did not mean enough to him and has now shattered me…Promising someone forever is now not a saying that I will ever believe again.

 

So how do you cope after a break-up?

Mad and crying, or rearing to go and ready to move on?

 

Who or What Inspires You?

So here is the age old question, What Inspires You? Now, I feel like I should say that there is no right or wrong answer here! This is left up to each individual person to decide, and it will vary significantly from person to person. change

First lets delve into what it means to be inspired, the definition for the word inspire is to make (someone) want to do something : to give (someone) an idea about what to do or create. It can also mean to cause (something) to happen or be created; or to cause someone to have (a feeling or emotion).

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So who or what inspires you?  It can something as simple as nature, your kids, music, love, or a multitude of other things. For me, it is the sounds of nature. The chirping of birds, the sound of a thunderstorm, the sound of rain falling are all very near and dear to me. I absolutely love it and this is when my creative juices flow the best. Here is an example from Youtube. I especially like to listen to this music while I am writing or quilting. It is a feeling of being free and one with nature.

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So you say, how do I find what is inspirational to me? Well, you just keep trying different things. Like previously stated, there is no right or wrong way to be or get inspired. It is totally different for each person, so just keep trying different things/methods until you find one that helps you do whatever it is you want to do. This can simply be listening to specific kind of music, or smelling a certain smell(like lavender), or being outside. Keep trying new things! Hopefully you will know of at least a few ideas to try. If not, a simple Google Search will offer many suggestions.

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So, now you’ve found something that inspires you? Now what? You hop to whatever needs to be done. I use my music to motivate my mind, most of  the time it works very well. So, anytime I need or want to do some writing or something else that is important; I listen to my nature sounds. I have many downloaded on my phone. This is a regular occurrence for me. These are available through many different sources such as Amazon Prime Music, Youtube, Pandora, and many other sites.

Pinterest also has a ton of pictures that have inspirational quotes. I have one above my desk that says, “You are far too smart to be the only thing standing in your way.” I printed it out and hung it up because this quote hits me right in the heart. No matter the circumstance, you are far too smart to let yourself be the only thing standing in your own way.

So, tell me. What inspires you?

 

 

 

Finding Time, Making a Life

Busy much? I know I am but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t make time. You should make time for your kids, time for your spouse,  and most importantly time for yourself. I know this is easier said than done. We find ourselves wrapped up in work, school, cleaning, yard work, and the other tasks of life. Often we forget that there are people who need, want, and crave our attention. My kids get most unruly when I dont spend enough time with them. Okay, yes I am a stay at home mom. So you say, “How is this possible?” Well I have a life to keep up with, kids to chase, work to do, cleaning to be done, food to be cooked, and school to do with the kids.

Making time for yourself and your spouse should also be equally important. My fiance has a crazy work schedule. It’s 5:23 am, and here we sit together spending time with each other. It doesn’t have to be any sense of normal. I’ve slept 3 hours tonight and will sleep 3 more this afternoon. I chose to spend time with him whenever I can. You see I was up half the night, til 1am, taking time for myself after the kids went to bed. This is how we choose to live our life. We have an extremely odd schedule, yes. We school first thing in the morning, usually starts at 10 and done by 2.Oh, the joys of homeschooling. Then I nap or work, it just depends. After that, it’s kid time. Then, when they are in bed, I have more work time to do blog things and such.

I have to pick my battles daily. These battles aren’t very major and seem petty but to me having a life and raising my kids is very important to me. So some days the dishes don’t get done, others schoolwork is not done, other days we just Netflix and chill and nothing gets done. I chose to spend time with the people who mean the most to me. There’s a quote that always hit home with me, “Don’t get so busy making a living that you forget to make a life!”

This hits home with me, I need to be involved in my own life. Don’t get so busy making money, cleaning the house, doing other thing and forget to make memories. Memories that will last a lifetime; these things are what is important. I’m glad I have the opportunity to be so involved. I give many thanks to my fiance! Love you’re family! It’s free, and is very valuable to them. Make the time! Even if it’s only a couple of hours. Some things can be left for tomorrow; our kids and spouse need us today.

Hope you have a wonderful day!