Overwhelmed and Defeated

So I had a horrible day! Getting it from every direction today…

Why does the littlest thing push me to my breaking point? I refuse to be a stepping stone, crutch, or anything else of the sort. But, here I sit feeling overwhelmed and defeated. I am unsure what I did to deserve this. 

Yet, I knew it would come to this. I feel no matter what I do, nothing is right! And, slowly but surely its gonna make me snap. I hate these kind of feelings! Nothing I say or do will effect me positively…so for now, Im giving up! 

No matter what you do, you will no longer control me. You lost that priviledge years ago. But, know you’re causing hurt that might not be repairable! On more than one account too, but you dont care. Its always about you, you were never the one to see things outside of the box.
Hoping todays events will fade into the night peacefully! Tomorrow is a new day.

Good night all…


15 Tips to Combat Anxiety

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What is an anxiety attack? An anxiety attack is described as episodes of high degree stress responses accompanied by or precipitated by a high degree of fear or anxiety.

Here are some symptoms:

  • A feeling of overwhelming fear
  • Feelings of going crazy or losing control
  • Feeling like you might pass out
  • An urgency to escape
  • Dizziness
  • Heart Palpitations
  • Trembling
  • Sweating
  • Loss of breath
  • Weak in the knees
  • Turning Pale
  • Chest pressure or pain
  • Feeling detached from reality
  • Burning skin
  • Pins and needles feeling
  • Hot and cold flashes
  • Numbness and/or tingling sensation

This list is not exclusive, there are many other symptoms. Now I am going to share some tips from Anxiety and Depression Association of America on how to combat anxiety. Anxiety attacks can be debilitating; they can make you feel awful. These episodes can be extremely intense and frightening.

Tips to combat anxiety include:

  • Eating healthy
  • Take a time out
  • Limit alcohol and caffeine
  • Get plenty of sleep
  • Exercise daily
  • Take deep breaths
  • Count to 10 slowly
  • Accept that you can not control everything
  • Do your best
  • Welcome humor
  • Maintain a positive attitude
  • Learn what triggers your anxiety
  • Get involved
  • Talk to someone
  • Getting help online

Anxiety is no joke. I personally feel like I am trapped, can’t breathe, and will need to be taken to a safe space immediately. The anxiety attacks can be triggered by many things but most often for me it is from being abandoned as a child and many other things. I get extremely worried if family members aren’t where they say they are going to be at a certain time. This often leads to a panic attack because I fear the worst possible outcome. When having a panic attack my whole chest area above my breasts turns extremely red and splotchy. This is usually an indication that I am about to lose control. Sometimes it can take hours for these feelings to go away.

Anxiety can be treated with medication, therapy, complementary and/or alternative treatments, and transcranial magnetic stimulation (TMS).  Please consult your doctor if you believe you have anxiety issues and about your options for a treatment plan. There are multiple ways for anxiety symptoms to be decreased.