The Hardest Day of Life

So today is one of those days where it took every bit of energy to drag myself out of bed, only took me 3 hours. Living with choices you make can be difficult. I’ve made some choices that really make me wonder.  See, leaving words unspoken can destroy you. My biological dad passed away from lung cancer a year ago today. We had only known for 6 weeks. There are so many things I wished I had said.

Here’s a little history. I’m adopted. My dad was a part of my life until I was 10. I have a very few fond memories with him, and they are extremely cherished memories. When I got adopted, I didn’t have the opportunity to speak to or see him until I was 18. I went to see him for the first time in a long time was when I was 19 and a newlywed. He actually helped pay for our wedding bands as a wedding gift. Well I didn’t get to see him very much until just a couple of years ago when he helped me move back home. We lived in different states for a very long time and life was just crazy. Fast forward a few years and let’s just say I have my regrets.

Luckily, I got to spend a lot of time with him his last few days here on Earth. Like 4 days straight. I can say I was pretty manic then. Then the depression set in after his funeral. I was not a pleasant person to love or live with.

Time is precious! Love your family today. You never know what tomorrow may bring.

Today I  chose to remember the happy times. He was a great man who worked hard to provide for his family. Today I choose to live in the present, not the past.

Good day to you all!