I know it’s been a while but I hate moving!! And I feel like I have just spent the better part of the past 2 weeks moving, in 90 degree heat. I went from 3,300 sq ft to 864 sq ft…. It has been a hard transition for all of us but we are managing. I started working well over 3 weeks ago too, so that has started taking up a substantial amount of my time. It sucks but such is life. It has to be done. I can and will not let my boys down. They need me now more than ever. My mental health has been all over the place the past few weeks with all the changes happening in my life right not. I hate change also!!
I don’t do well when my routine changes. This past month has been especially hard. It is just so hard accepting that the whole way my life plays out has changed. I am glad to say that things are ever-changing. I love the way our life used to be! But without change nothing is ever going to get better. We had to make changes for ourselves as well as our children. The fear of change will hold you back more than anything. I am scared but we have to move forward.
I hope and wish on a star that things will work out in our relationship but I am just so uncertain at this moment. I am glad to say that we are working on us as individuals as well as a couple. But this is not an overnight fix. I need time to assess our situation after such a drastic change in our lives. We both have wants and desires that are not being fulfilled. This is a huge aspect of our relationship that we are working on. We need to be individuals as well as a couple.
Loving someone with a mental illness is a daily challenge. I can honestly say that I am most hard to handle sometimes. It is part of who I am! I wished there were certain things about me that I could change but I can’t. So this is where you must decide to love me through it all or not at all.
I hope that you will forgive me for my absence recently. I am sort of settled into the new place, and I have cable internet now… Soooo I am back!!